i thought about blogging when i was on the way home.
when i was just engulfed in my own emotions.
well, the past few months have been quite a trying period.
with projects and trying to juggle work, though i had been working so much lesser since.
still the emotional pressure is still quite heavy.
pressure from completing our assignments which was not many in quantity,
but very demanding in terms of commitment and inititativeness.
but it was still great fun , though taxing, as I as always complete it with the love of roveloveroves.
work on the other hand, started to go awry.
people seemed to change.
mgt was changed and we had to cope with the different working styles yet.
and the atmosphere seemed to change too.
everyone started to get more self-centered and seemed to be only concerned with their own portion of work.
the once helpful attitude seemed to have faded-off.
new-comers and regular staff seemed to have lost their initiative( except for those nicer few)
it could have been the sensitive me
it could just be the paranoid me
but it all seems like they are all against us.
perhaps they doubt the reasons we gave for not being able to commit more to work
perhaps they just do not see eye to eye with us.
having to cope with this emotional stress and having to live with it whenever we are in office is simply too tiresome.
for some reasons, people started to notice the subtle things we do – those that they feel were not exemplary
and they started to name out in plain view.
they could not be bothered if they themselves did it,
just as long as they were not involved in what they were going to announce.
they started to go blind as well, so much so that they “cant see the queue in front of them”
maybe it’s just us who are the constant, our fault for feeling guilty when not clearing the queues faster than we can.
our fault for trying to handle both queues when the rest cant be bothered.
our fault for having to handle so many cases that by the time we hit home, we are too tired to do anything else.
our fault for stopping for awhile in an attempt to clear some of the follow-ups which soon after someone will bring along a customer requesting that we try to clear the queue.
our fault for trying not to interrupt them when they are trying to do their cases ( when we know they can multitask for nuts) and thus giving them ample reason to use an sufficiently loud “YES?” to question why we are standing in the corner with the peice of document.
though we cant really track it, we know that they have been spying at us through online social platforms on what we are doing.
even when we are not at work, they expect us to be available 24/7 by the com to reply emails and follow up.
emotional stress can only be tolerated to some levels.
when it hits breaking point, it destroys the person.
making it so bad that one will have to have a reasonably exciting goal to motivate themselves to stay in and work as much as possible.
while trying to hold the tears when the day is over.
when can we break out of this. when.
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